Beautiful Hangover

Manila. October 24, 2012. 12 hours of patience. 2 hours and 30 minutes of ecstasy. We finally get to meet THE boys namely Kwon Jiyong, Dong Yongbae, Choi Seunghyun, Kang Daesung and Lee Seunghyun.

Seeing them in flesh was already an achievement. The performances were spectacular; ChoomTOP, GD's talent, Seungri's charisma, Taeyang's dance moves and Daesung's voice. I just hope we had a better view of them from above (because we're at the General Admission box) so we could see how bubbly and playful they were. Haha! These boys... my feelings... "It can't be helped. I don't have time. I'm sorry."

Their Filipino skills were obviously taught by Dara. Daesungie~ you did the Sandara wave!

Also, I honestly saw the silhouettes of Hwangssabu and Dara when they were leaving the venue. We waited for their cars (which we also saw upon their arrival at the venue) to pass by us despite the heavy rainfall. And Karen's gut feels were pretty positive during that day. She got to hold G-Dragon's hand when he let out his hand at the car window. Kudos my friend!

Meeting fellow VIPs on the spot was also fun as well, even while we were waiting outside the venue. We practiced "Fantastic Baby" and "Bad Boy" fanchants. I bet the boys have heard it when they arrived at the venue. I hope to see them in Facebook or Twitter. Meeting some of them felt like it was a start of a very good friendship because we share the same fandom. :)

However, I had a few disappointments regarding the producers and the failed missions but I don't want to think of them anymore since we already had the best night of our lives.

Hmmm... "I don't know what to say no more" in this album description (although I already wrote a very long one.) Just that, I am already happy knowing that Bigbang have enjoyed their stay and concert in Manila. They promised that they will come back soon. That was actually a 'rare' promise. :)

Lastly, I realized how much I wanted to be with them (if I can) forever. Soon, I'll be in Korea and visit not only them, but the whole YG family. :)

Here is a link of my album in Facebook: BIGBANG

Sorry for the blurred pictures. I included them all as part of my pictographic memory (lolwut? haha!) I am a poor fangirl who is not ashamed to admit that I just bought General Admission tickets just to see these boys perform.


SETLIST (feel free to comment if I missed something or the sequence is wrong, thanks!):

INTRO (Alive)
Tonight
Hands Up
Fantastic Baby
How Gee
Stupid Liar
Knock Out + High High
Strong Baby + What Can I Do
Gara Gara Go!
Number 1
Cafe
Bad Boy
Blue
Love Song
Monster
Feeling
Look Only At Me + Wedding Dress
Wings
Haru Haru
Lies
Last Farewell

Encore:
My Heaven
Bad Boy
Fantastic Baby
Feeling

Luck for September, perhaps?

I've been busy for quite some time, and as you all have noticed, I haven't blogged last month. Right now, I just wanted to share some present thoughts about how unfortunate I am today.

Issues. On school. On my friends.

I'm getting nervous with my grades on two subjects. A major and a minor. Although I have really done my best last preliminary exams, as the cliche goes, my best was not good enough. I still failed on those exams although I really did study. I even became sleepless nowadays especially that our deadline for thesis submission is fast approaching and I'm not even half way done. I don't know what's wrong with me. I think I'm getting depressed with what was happening. I overthink a lot. It doesn't help, I know. But I can't help it.

I want to graduate on the 2nd of April, 2013. :(

And then about some of my friends.

Is there something wrong with me? Have I done something wrong? Have I said something wrong? I can't recall things that I did or said to make them feel bad or annoyed. I don't know. I want to be confronted if ever. "I don't know what to say no more." - G-Dragon, That XX.

Lastly, losing things. I lost my 8-year old watch last August. And I recently lost my USB that I've been using for 4 years and dorm keys. The feeling of losing them made me feel like I need to let go of something. Let go of my teenage life, I guess? But what's the matter? I don't get why I need to be unfortunate with things right now.

I just wanna leave. Go somewhere far that even bad luck or bad karma will not find me.

Black hole.

Words. Visions. Imaginings.

As I stare blankly at the yellow wall of my room where the cork board with sticky notes of different colors is hanging, there are words popping up my head, making me want to say them all to you. But you will not hear me, for you are out of reach, away. Far and away.

I keep seeing question marks, they seem confused as well. What would want you to know the truth? You keep ignoring me after all.

And guess what's inside my head? It keeps on wondering, thinking... "If I was in her place..." And then I don't know what it says next.

Words. Visions. Imaginings.

"...you'll have no regrets."

"...you'll be happy with me."

"...I'll let you do what you want to do in life."

"...we would be playing in the rain like kids and hide on the sidewalks when thunder claps."

"...every penny would be worth it."

"...you will be free."

And now, I'm running out of words. What remain are visions that cannot be translated. Imaginings that cannot happen.

You're a jerk.

What if it was you?

What if you are my long lost childhood friend? What if it was you who left for a very long time and never came back? What if it was your name I had forgotten? What if it was you I have wanted to talk to for a long time? My dear friend from the past... what if it was you?

All I remember was his image from afar, he was running away. Saying goodbye because he was being called by his Lolo. It was a sunny afternoon. And then my mind went white. I can't recall anything anymore. All I know is that he was my friend, my childhood friend. I forgot his name.

When he ran away and transferred I don't know where, I started to value friendship and remember everything my friends and I have shared. Perhaps that's why "best friends" are so sentimental to me.

I hope you too.

What the author of my book for thesis has taught me...

I am loving the book I chose to use for my thesis. It was entitled "Positively Mental" by Elvira Mata and it was only published this year. Its genre was creative nonfiction and it's really fun reading it. I hope doing my thesis would be fun, too. :))

Anyway, below are my favorite excerpts from the book:

• From Dating Tips: Chant: "I am attractive, smart, and funny." You will feel a million times more confident about yourself. Don't "Huh?" as you read this. Believe.
• From When the cats jump over the TV: "Your TV fell," he announced. "What do you mean?" "I found it on the floor lying face down," he answered. "Like it was attacked by cats?" "Yeah. What do you want me to do?" he asked. "Take my cats to EDSA and tell them to cross the street," I said, upset. (FYI: I am not a cat-hater, I just really laughed when I read this part, haha!)
• From Rain, rain, go away: I have not been speaking to him for a few months because... I don't remember now but it must have been painful because I have blocked it out of my consciousness.
• From Men leave: Men are like cheese: they smell and have holes in their excuses. Men are like dairy products. They expire or they leave.
• From Manual on life: "If it tastes good, it's probably fattening and bad for your health. If it tastes bad, I probably cooked it." "If it hurts, he's not worth it." "There's nothing a bar of dark chocolate couldn't cure." "What's important is not getting there, it's the journey. Be sure you bring change for pamasahe."

Those are my favorite excerpts. There will be more when I read and re-read it. That's it for now. :D