About Depression... again.

Depression has been a talk recently since the passing of Mr. Robin Williams. In some articles I have presently read about it (depression, I mean), there are points in which I both agree and disagree, and whenever I disagree, I can't help but roll my eyes because I personally do not like reading stuff written by people who thought they know what they are writing, but really don't. Most of all, I do not like it when people write stuff about a particular matter without even thinking about the feeling of being in the situation.

Now, you may be asking me, "Who are you to tell us what to think? Why, have you experienced depression before that you think you know what you are saying?"

Well, I have an answer for you. Depression has been my issue ever since I was traumatized by an unfortunate experience that happened more than a month ago. It is recurring, and it is difficult to deal with.

"How are you sure that you are depressed? Did you talk to a psychiatrist about it?"

No, but I have studied things about depression since it was my thesis topic way back in college. I have learned the things that might have caused it, its effects, its real nature, and I can say that I am depressed because I know that it is not just a feeling. It is an illness that could not get out of my system [yet]. Also, keyword: trauma.

"So what's your point in this discussion of yours?"

My point is that, I just hope people will refrain, if not stop, from writing things or telling things about a serious matter like depression as if they know what its nature is. I am saying this not because I studied things about it, but because I know to myself that I have this illness in me which I gained after being traumatized, and I can't help but to shake my head whenever I read or hear things that are not really true, if not factual, about depression. I am saying this because it is very difficult for someone with depression to deal with things happening around him/her especially when he/she feels helpless, too. Most of all, I am saying this because it is very difficult to let other people understand what depression really is for us.

Personally, I do not want to witness the fall of a depressed person because it only adds to my fear and remember the trauma, thus making me helpless and more depressed. However, I also think that it is a good thing to witness one so that we gain fear of death, thus making us courageous enough to continue living and surviving. It is confusing, I know, but believe me when I say that it is very difficult to handle and think about. I just don't know if you will think about it the same way as I do.